Travis's thought

简：“什么？”
特拉维斯：“起先他甚至一点都没有意识到她变了。自从那孩子降生，她开始对周围的一切感到烦躁。她对任何事情都显得不耐烦，甚至连那孩子对她来说也是不公平的。他尽量讨她的欢心，给她买东西。一个星期带她出去吃一次饭。可是似乎任何东西都不能令她满意。有两年的时间，他尽了一切努力使他们的关系和好如初，但最后，仍然是无可挽回。”
说到这里，特拉维斯停了一下。简站在小屋里，脸色已不象先前那样春风满面了，只见她垂着头，一动也不动。
特拉维斯说：“所以，他又开始酗酒。可是这次……这次当他很晚回家时，她既不担心，也不嫉妒，只是大发雷霆。她责备他不该让她生孩子。她告诉他，她连做梦也想要逃跑，而且梦见的也都是逃跑。”
听到这里，简的眼里滴出了泪水。
特拉维斯：“她梦见她自己深夜里光着身子跑到公路上，穿过田野，来到河边。她到处奔跑。正当她要逃走的时候，他出现了，并且阻止了她。当她把梦告诉他时，他深信不疑。他知道，他一定得阻止她，否则她会永远离开他的。所以，他在她的脚踝上绑了一只铃铛。如果她半夜起床的话，他就能听到铃声。可她把铃铛塞进袜子里，偷偷地又跑了，她刚想往公路上跑，又被他抓了回来。他把她拖回活动房里，并且用皮带把她捆在炉子上，然后自己上床睡了。他在床上听着她不时地尖叫，而且，他儿子也哭叫起来。可是他居然对这一切表现得如此地麻木不仁。当时他只有一个念头，睡觉。第一次，他希望走得远远地，湮没在广阔无垠的田野里，谁也不认识他。那里没有语言和街道。他想到了这样的地方但没有地名。当他醒来的时候，发现周围一片火海。他从床上跳起来，首先去寻找他最爱的两个人……可是，他们走了。
简听到这里，再也按捺不住自己的感倩，饮泣起来。
特拉维斯：“他的手臂烧着了，他跑到门外，在地上打了个滚，然后，他走了。他没有回头看一眼火焰，只是往前走，一直走到太阳升起来不能再走为止。当太阳落山的时候，他又走。就这样走了五天五夜，一直走到他作为人的各种象征消失为止。”
特拉维斯说完，深深地吐了一口气，便不再作声。简站在那儿，早已哭成了泪人儿。
她走到窗前，对着玻璃凄惨地叫了一声“特拉维斯”，便双膝跪倒在玻璃窗前。特拉维斯转过椅子，面对着简，心里十分痛楚。
特拉维斯：“如果你把灯关上，看得见我吗？”
简：“我不知道，我从来没有试过。”
说着，她站起身来，在屋角里找到开关，关上了灯，又来到窗前。
特拉维斯把桌上的台灯对着自已的脸，问，“你看得见我吗？”
简：“看见了。”
特拉维斯：“你认得出我吗？”
简：“嗯，特拉维斯。”
特拉维斯：“我把亨特带来了。……你要见他吗？”
简：“我太想见他了，以至都不敢想象。安妮一直给我寄来他的照片，直到我叫她停止为止。看着他一天天长大，我难以忍受这思念之苦。”
特拉维斯：“为什么你不把他留在身边呢，简？”
简：“我不能，特拉维斯。我知道他需要什么，可是我没有。我也不想利用他来填补我自己的空虚。”
特拉维斯：“可是，他现在需要你，简。”
简：“是吗？”
特拉维斯：“是的，他在等你。”
简：“在哪儿？”
特拉维斯：“城里。在一家叫梅里迪的旅馆，房间号码1520。”
说着，他慢慢放下了听筒。简焦急了，她轻轻地叩着窗玻璃，急切地问：“你要走了，是吗？”
特拉维斯重新拿起听筒，说：“我不能见你，简。”
简：“不要走……不要走。”
简抹去脸上的泪珠，从桌子上拿过一个传话筒抱在怀里，蹲在地上，慢慢地又诉说起来。
简：“从你离开以后，我曾经想要和你作一次长时间的谈话。我曾经整天和你说话，即使是独身一人。有几个月的时间，我走来走去总觉得是在和你说话。可是，现在，我不知道说什么好。当我在和想象中的你谈话时，好象更容易些。我还想象着你回答了我的话。我们谈了很长时间，就我们俩。似乎你就在那儿，我能听到你，看到你，嗅到你。我能听到你的声音。有的时候，你的声音能把我唤醒，即使是半夜里，好象是你在房间和我在一起。然而，……这一切又慢慢地消失了。我再也无法构想出你的面容。我试过大声对你叫喊，就象以前一样。可是，那里什么也没有。我听不见了，于是……我放弃了。一切都停止了。你……也消失了。现在，我在这儿工作，整天听着你的声音。每一个男人的声音都和你的一样。”
简说完，轻声地抽泣起来。一时，二人都默默无言。半晌，特拉维斯终于打破了沉默：“我跟亨特说，你会去找他。”
简：“特拉维斯？”
特拉维斯：“什么？”
简：“我会去的。”
特拉维斯：“好。”
简：“梅里迪旅馆？”
特拉维斯：“是的，1520房间。

Old memory in DVD

金斯基

英文版：

Travis
I knew these people. These two people…(coughing)…They were in love with each other. The girl was very young, about 17 or 18 I guess. And the guy was quite a bit older. He was kind of raggeddy and wild. And she was very beautiful, you know. And together,they turned everything into a kind of adventure. And she liked that. Just an ordinary trip down to the grocery store was full of adventure. They were always laughing at stupid things. He liked to make her laugh. And…they didn’t much care for anything else because all they wanted to do was to be with each other. They were always together. And he loved her more than… he ever felt possible. He couldn’t stand being away from her during the day when he went to work. So he quit, just to be home with her. Then he get another job when the money ran out, then he quit again. But pretty soon she started to worry.

Jane
About what?

Travis
Money I guess. Not having enough. Not knowing when the next check was coming in.

Jane(rit)
I know that feeling.

Travis
So he started to get kind of…torn inside.

Jane
How do you mean?

Travis
Well, he knew he had to work support her, but he couldn't stand being away from her, either.

Jane
I see.

Travis
And the more he's away from her, the crazier he got. Except now, he got really crazy. He started to imagine in all kinds of things.

Jane
Like what?

Travis
He started to think that she was seeing another man on the slide. He came home from work and accused her spending the day with somebody else. He yelled at her and break things on the trailer.

Jane
The trailer?

Travis
Yes, they lived in a trailer home. Anyway, he started to drink real bad and he stayed out late to test her, to see if she get jealous. He wanted her to get jealous. But she didn’t. She just worried about him. That got him even madder. He thought that she never get jealous meaning that she never really cared about him. Jealousy was a sign of her love for him. And then one night, one night she told him that she was pregnant. She was about 3 or 4 months pregnant. And he didn't even know. And then suddenly everything changed. He stopped drinking. He got a steady job. He was convinced that she loved him now because she was carrying his child. And he was going to dedicate himself to making a home for her. But the funny thing started to happen. He didn't even notice it at first. SHE started to change. The day the baby was born, she began to get irritated at everything around her. She got mad at everything. Even the baby seems to be an injustice to her. He kept on doing everything all right for her. Buy her things. Take her out for dinner once a week. But nothing seemed to satisfy her. For 2 years, he struggled to pull them back together like they were when they first met. But finally he knew that it was never gonna work out. So he hit the bottle again.
But this time he got mean. This time when he came home late at night, she wasn't worried about him or jealous. She was just enraged. She accused him of holding her a captive by having her have a baby. She told him that she dreamed about escaping. That was all she dreamed about: escape. She saw herself at night, running naked down the highway, running across fields, running down riverbeds,always running. And always just when she was about to get away, he'd be there. He would stop her somehow. He would just appear and stop her. And when she told him these dreams. He believed them. He knew she had to be stopped, or she'd leave him forever. So he tied a cowbell to her ankle. So he could hear her at night if she tried to get out of the bed. But she learned how to muffle the bell by stuffing a stocking into it and inching her way out of the bed and into the night. He caught her one night when the sock fell out and he heard her trying to run to the high way. He caught her, and dragged her back to the trailer, and tied her to the stove with his belt. He just left her there, went back to bed and laid there listening to her scream. And he listened to his son scream. He was surprised at himself because he didn't feel anything anymore. All he wanted to do was sleep. For the first time, he wished to went far away, lost in a deep, vast country where nobody knew him. Somewhere without language, or streets. And he dreamed about this place without knowing its name. And when he woke up, he was on fire. There were blue flames burning the sheets of his bed. He ran through the flames, for the only 2 people he loved. But they were gone. His arms were burning. And he threw himself outside and rolled on the wet ground. And he ran. He never looked back at the fire. He just ran.He ran until the sun came up and he couldn't run any further. And when the sun went down, he ran again. For five days he ran like this, until every sign of the man had disappeared.


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