看了Mike Leigh执导的《All or Nothing》,讲的是孤独,细腻的感受犹如照镜般直触心底。
当多年后的某夜,转身醒来,身旁男人臃肿的手臂沉沉地压在胸前,鼾声起伏,你是否後悔这样的选择,有所不甘却又无可奈何?
生活就是这样,在蹉跎与沮丧中不知觉地一步步走向尽头,家庭的负担,工作的压力,是抛开一切寻求自我净身抑或负荷喘气前行?
"If you knew what was gonna happen to you...when you wake up in the morning, you'd neverget out of bed. That's life."
出租车司机Phil,肥胖、乱发,其貌不扬,每天面对形形色色的乘客,看尽人生百态,面无表情地淡漠一切。回到家,在超市收银的妻子Penny对他不满,抱怨他睡懒觉不努力工作,两个肥胖子女,姐姐Rachel在老人院负责清洁,平时除了阅读和帮忙做家务外,不愿接触外界;不愿工作的啃老族弟弟Rory终日百无聊赖,面对Penny的教育总不自觉地咆哮起来。
"You're born alone, and you die alone. Nothing you can do about it."
崩溃的临界点其实很模糊,一触即发,或是无意识击发,就像Rory的气结,Phil的受够般来得那么突然。
两句台词将整部冗长沉闷缓慢悲观的影片一下子推入了毫无准备的高潮。
Penny的哭哮,"What can I switch off when I've had enough?"。
Phil强忍泪水问道,"Do you love me?" 。
是呵,多么简单的一个问题,却是可以给予多少个复杂的答案。问问自己,作何回答?
习惯于对恋人不满,对家人不满,对挚友不满,我们是否真的不能容忍对方的不尽人意?
"If I'm making you unhappy... ... I ain't got no skills. I don't earn enough money. I know I'm a diasppointment to you. I know I get on your nerves. It's like something's died. I feel like an old tree that ain't got no water. ... ... We ain't got much, but we got each other, and that's enough. But if you don't want me, we ain't got nothing. ..."
你还爱我吗?我们是否依然相爱?我还能像从前般轻易逗笑让你展现甜美的笑颜麽?
影片末尾给了主角们一个重新开始的机会,也许穷其一生他们不曾富有,但至少他们仍然还有对方。
人生在世,注定就是孤独的,能让自己多点感受人与人之间的温存,并结伴谐往生命终点,还是稍微能消除孤单的。

一无所有All or Nothing(2002)

又名:折翼天使

上映日期:2002-09-09片长:128分钟

主演:蒂莫西·斯波 / 莱丝利·曼维尔 / Alison Garland / 詹姆斯·柯登 / 莎莉·霍金斯 / 

导演:迈克·李 / 编剧:Mike Leigh